Saturday, July 21, 2007 ; 6:54:00 PM ♥
I woke up around 10 plus as the casket man came. I did not really want to want wake as I was so tired. I got no choice since everyone went down. At the void deck of 402 Yishun Ring Rd, the man arrived together with my grandma casket. My feeling is like using my head to hit the stone. Feeling running here and there. After she arrived and settled everyone. Some relative came first, I dunno who and I don't care whoever it is. I just stayed there until at night.
At night time, there were some ritual going down. I don'nt really like this kind of thing but because of her so I went. The first few minutes was terrible. Got about 70 pages of ritual. The moment I saw it, my headache just automatic pain. After few pages of ritual conducted by them. I cried and cried. My heart was thinking, she was already dead. What for giving this kind of ritual. I wanted to burst out ask them to stop everything. I wanted to shout at them. I managed to calm myself down even though my head going to explode. Luckily I did not, if not she will not rest in peace. I did not concentrate on what they are ritualing and one of the ritual keep helping me to turn the pages. About 10 mins later, I stopped and patiently waited for them to finish. Once they finished, I was kinda relieved but my heart still beating slowly. In fact I don even whether my heart is pumping a not. I just could not feel anything. Around 11 pm, we went up to sleep expect my elder uncle and aunt stayed through the night
At night time, there were some ritual going down. I don'nt really like this kind of thing but because of her so I went. The first few minutes was terrible. Got about 70 pages of ritual. The moment I saw it, my headache just automatic pain. After few pages of ritual conducted by them. I cried and cried. My heart was thinking, she was already dead. What for giving this kind of ritual. I wanted to burst out ask them to stop everything. I wanted to shout at them. I managed to calm myself down even though my head going to explode. Luckily I did not, if not she will not rest in peace. I did not concentrate on what they are ritualing and one of the ritual keep helping me to turn the pages. About 10 mins later, I stopped and patiently waited for them to finish. Once they finished, I was kinda relieved but my heart still beating slowly. In fact I don even whether my heart is pumping a not. I just could not feel anything. Around 11 pm, we went up to sleep expect my elder uncle and aunt stayed through the night
